Friday, March 12, 2021

COVID -19 and 2020 recollections

 

Sylvester and Pinky and I enjoy the sunset

I'm writing to you from lovely green Kefalonia, Greece. I came here in October for a writing retreat with a bunch of Berlin writers that had been postponed from May (due to the pandemic). Back in January 2020 when I first signed up for this retreat, I envisioned taking a month off and writing for a week then going on holiday and "island hopping" for a month before returning to Berlin and my work as a consultant.

Little did I know how much things would change for me.

This is probably the year I've done the least amount of travel since I got my passport in 1997 to go on a study tour/vacation to Jamaica! The year started off with a bang - new year's eve in the village in NYC with my friend Alec from my days in DC, visiting old friends in NYC and shopping and eating. I then went to DC on the 3rd of January for my first vacation trip there for a few years and caught a terrible flu around the 6th. I recovered but I remember the weeks of fatigue afterwards and the wheezing and difficulty breathing. I look back now and wonder if it was COVID although the virus had not yet arrived in the USA at the time. Magical thinking to hope that I'm immune is more probable.

I flew back to Berlin after recuperating with my friend Cat in Pennsylvania and my sister in South Carolina and almost immediately went to Bulgaria for a training of one of my favorite projects last year, developing a curricula for interpreters and cultural mediators on how to respond to GBV survivors and provide psychological support for them, as well as addressing vicarious traumatization and burnout for themselves. Interpreters and cultural mediators are the front line workers - particularly in Europe - and it was a very meaningful and lovely project. I met amazing people that really gave me a lot of energy to do this work.

And then I went on a quick holiday jaunt to Dubai to see a friend (thinking, well, I don't love Dubai but its just for a few days!) I had the idea that I would then go from there to a conference in Bangkok and visit friends there, visit my friends in Maldives, and then go to Fiji to see friends there - possibly spending some time getting to know the Pacific before returning to Europe for spring. Boy how those plans changed! As I traveled back on February 11 on the terrible Pegasus Airlines from the budget terminal in Dubai and had a 3 hour layover in the "third" airport of Istanbul from 2am to 5am, the stories of the virus in Asia had spread and one by one, all the events in Asia were being canceled. "Good," I thought, "I could use a rest. These last few flights have been horrible! I am tired of traveling." Little did I know what that meant!

So I stayed at home. February in Berlin is not a pretty month  - dark, grey, cold, and rainy. But i was happy to be in my apartment for a while. We had an amazing spring and I had a small balcony where I could sit in the sun and plant flowers. But it was not restful and the fear of contracting COVID, spreading COVID, or learning that my loved ones had COVID was ever present. At the same time, the humanitarian world was coming to terms that GBV was the shadow pandemic coming alongside the lockdowns and quarantines. Never have I wished more that I had a cat. Simon Le Bon, the Siamese would have reminded me to sit, nap, breathe, eat, and purr to stay calm.

Dancing with Lukas in Templehof

 Berlin was a strange place to be in - we seemed to have the most beautiful spring in a long time and the summer saw the sidewalks and outdoor cafes packed with people outside, not a mask to be seen. And the noise from my neighborhood became unbearable. I hated being in my apartment (although its lovely). I couldn't get away from the stomping neighbors upstairs, the chattering coked up people at the restaurant downstairs under my bedroom, or the drunken mobs coming home from dancing and partying in the park near my house at 4am. I felt miserable and angry all the time. We did have some bright spots, all social activities moved to the parks so we had a few birthday parties in the outdoors. So in October, I came to Kefalonia for the writing retreat... and just stayed.


And - its March and I'm still here! I wake up and look at the Ionian sea and a grove of olive trees. 5 cats (Pinky Tuscadero, Cutie Pie, Sylvester, Filos, and Jenny) come onto my balcony and stare at me until I feed them. We discuss the seasons. I check them for ticks. They fight with each other and sometimes they curl up in the sun with each other and clean each other. We've been on lockdown since November which means there's a 6pm curfew and you have to get permission from the police to go out. So I go out once a week to buy groceries. I go downstairs to talk to my Greek neighbors and cook with them. And I walk around in the olive groves to the sea and listen to Stephen Fry reading Greek mythology to me on an audio book. Thanks to zoom and the internet and a kindle, I can still talk to friends, work full-time, and read books and watch movies. Its a very different existence than February 2020! But a good one.

So forgive my tardiness in sending you holiday greets and instead accept this as Saint Patrick Day or Ides of March greetings! A few photos of Kefalonia, cats, and COVID outdoor party in Berlin

Much love,
Sarah